"The mark of an immature man is that he would die knobly for a cause. The mark of a mature man is that he would live humbly for one" - Catcher in the Rye -WARNING WRITER SPELLING CHALLENGED! But Sometimes you have to say "what the fuck!"

Friday, July 02, 2004

I want to take you in my arms, forgetting all I couldn't do today... Black Celebration

Let’s have a black celebration
Black celebration

To celebrate the fact
That we’ve seen the back
Of another black day

I look to you
How you carry on
When all hope is gone
Can’t you see

Your optimistic eyes
Seem like paradise
To someone like

I want to take you
In my arms
Forgetting all I couldn’t do today

Black celebration
Black celebration

To celebrate the fact
That we’ve seen the back
Of another black day

I look to you
And your strong belief
Me, I want relief

I want so much
Want to feel your touch

Take me in your arms
Forgetting all you couldn’t do today

Black celebration
I’ll drink to that
Black celebration

-Black Celebration Depeche Mode

My Black Celebration
I have suffered from fits of depression since my teenage years, I remember black periods of laying on the bed in my room, lights off, my stereo playing Depeche Mode’s Black Celebration album over, and over…. I would feel heavy, tired, unable to move, the world felt black, I felt apathy, overwhelm, failure and sadness….

Suicidide Solution
Many times as a teenager I thought about suicide, I remember one particular sunny day, crying in my room, holding a bottle of pills and a glass of water, and wanting badly to end the pain. As I was about to swallow down these pills, I could hear children outside my window laughing…. And I decided to keep living. When I started drinking, the depression and suicidal thoughts would overwhelm me, and there was several times I cut up my wrists, stabbed myself with things, or did other forms of abuse to myself. Im embarrassed now as an adult at the spectacle I would case. I wrote, a lot, too many poems to count, all with black themes, suicidal messages, and deep sorrow and sadness.

depression - a mental state characterized by a pessimistic sense of inadequacy and a despondent lack of activity

Is there no way out of the mind?
Sylvia Plath

The blood jet is poetry and there is no stopping it.
Sylvia Plath

Black Bouts
Bouts with deep depression have followed me through adulthood, like an unwanted ghost. Always lingering around me ready to overwhelm. I had a serious case of depression right after graduating from UC Berkeley. I felt like Dustin Hoffman in the graduate but worse. During college, I became exposed to Sylvia Plath, a poet who committed suicide in 1963. Sylvia wrote the semi-autobiographical book “the Bell Jar”, and I would identify with no book as strongly in my lifetime. In the book, a smart, creative writer goes to college and realizes that college is a place to meet husbands or training factory for women to become secretaries, teachers, or typists. I identified with Sylvia as she was also a struggling single mother, smart college graduate, who wrote suffered through depression. I realized after graduating from Berkeley top 3 percent, that it DIDN’T matter how frigging smart I was, my lot in life was to be that of a secretary or typist. Careers of which I have never been able to escape from their crushing glass ceiling. This still saddens me to no end, I want to do so much more, feel like my degree meant so much more….

The only difference from being in a rut and being dead is, that when you are dead, you don't mind when they throw dirt in your face.
--- Author Unknown

"the bell jar hung, suspended, a few feet above my head. I was open to the circulating air."Sylvia Plath in the Bell Jar

The Fog
Today, I feel depressed, it could be because Im on my period and my hormones are going crazy, or it could be because I stopped taking anti-depressants a week ago, or it could be because I feel alone, confused, unsure of where I am going in the sea called life. I feel as if a dark cloud has descended on me, surrounding my body, and I cant see past it. My eyes feel heavy, my jaw line clenched.

"The sickness rolled through me in great waves. After each wave it would fade away and leave me limp as a wet leaf and shivering all over and then I would feel it rising up in me again, and the glittering white torture chamber tiles under my feet and over my head and all four sides closed in and squeezed me to pieces." –Sylvia Plath in the Bell Jar

Temporary (hopefully) funk
Im trying to pull myself out of this funk, and I hope it will end as fast as it came on. Today, I am not able to post anything happy or sexual…. My world seems very dark today, and the Bell Jar hovers around me.

Depression Symptoms
1. You cried at the end of "The Little Mermaid".
2. You feel less attractive than mayonnaise.
3. You know how to say "suicide" in 15 languages

1. A trip to Disneyland!
2. A career in the arts.
3. Throw away your copy of The Bell Jar.

This was his Blue Period, so called because most of these paintings were dominated by various shades of blue, heigthening their mood of isolation and despair.

Quotes from Van Gogh on Depression

I might only succeed in this, if that heavy depression because everything I undertook failed, that torrent of reproaches which I have heard and felt, if it might be taken from me, and if there might be given to me both the opportunity...

But I am so angry with myself now because I cannot do what I should like to do, and at such a moment one feels as if one were lying bound hand and foot a the bottom of a deep, dark well, utterly helpless.

Sylvia Plath (October 27, 1932 - February 11, 1963) was an American poet, author, and essayist.
She showed early literary promise, publishing her first poem at the age of 8; her father, a college professor and noted authority on the subject of bees, died at around the same time. In her junior year at Smith College, Plath made what was to be the first of several suicide attempts: this was later to be detailed in the autobiographical novel, The Bell Jar, published in 1963. It is argued that she was affected by manic depression, and, notably, she was a resident of McLean Hospital. She married the English poet Ted Hughes in 1956, and published her first collection of poetry, The Colossus, in England in 1960.
She and Ted Hughes settled for a while in a small village in Devon, but separated less than two years after the birth of their first child, and Plath returned to London with their two children, Frieda and Nicholas, in tow. The winter of 1962/1963 was one of the harshest in living memory. On February 11, 1963, ill, low on money, Sylvia Plath committed suicide in her kitchen by gas asphyxiation. She is buried in the churchyard at Heptonstall, West Yorkshire.

The Catcher in the Rye written by J. D. Salinger
Published in 1951, the novel remains controversial today (it was the 13th most frequently challenged book from 1990-2000, according to the ALA [1]) and its hero, Holden Caulfield, has become an icon for teenage angst.
In the book, seventeen-year-old Holden Caulfield, writing from a mental institution, relates his experiences of the previous year (when he was 16).

Quotes from Catcher in the Rye
"The cars zoomed by, brakes screeched all over the place, his parents paid no attention to him, and he kept on walking next to the curb and singing 'If a body catch a body coming through the rye.' It made me feel better. It made me feel not so depressed any more"
"Anyway, I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody's around-nobody big, I mean-except me. And I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff-I mean if they're running and they don't look where they're going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That's all I'd do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all. I know it's crazy, but that's the only thing I'd really like to be. I know it's crazy"

Kurt battled with drug dependency, and depression all his adult life

Creativity and Depression and Manic Depression
Studies of Writers and Artists. "Reports published in Smooth Sailing on talks by Kay Redfield Jamison at symposiums co-sponsored by DRADA." Studies include John Keats, Virginia Woolf, F. Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald, and Robert Louis Stevenson.
John Keats
Despite his untimely death from tuberculosis at age 25, Keats produced some of the greatest poetry in our language or any other. As seems common among artists with symptoms of manic-depressive illness, he did much of his finest work in a great burst of creative activity (during nine months in 1819).
It is evident from Keats's notes and letters that he was subject to violent mood swings. "I am in that temper," he once wrote, "that if I were under water I would scarcely kick to come to the top." But he fought against his illness: "I shall get over my indolent fits."
Trained as a surgeon, Keats embellished his surgery lecture notes with many impromptu sketches in the margins—evidence of his wide-ranging interests, and also of his mercurial nature. Inability to maintain a steady mood characterized his life; though by this own description he was sometimes "lax, unemployed and unmeridian'd," his doctor once diagnosed him as suffering "the too great excitement of poetry."

Virginia Woolf
Virginia Woolf believed that her "madness" inspired her and made her a better writer. Her disease probably gave rise to the nontraditional narrative techniques and definitions of reality in her stream-of-consciousness style of writing. A friend said, "A dull moment in her company was not likely . . . her mind was a rich kingdom to itself and her going was the end of an age."
Virginia Woolf wrote two suicide notes telling of her certainty that she would become manic and that she "cannot fight it." In both notes she expressed gratitude to her husband. She believed she owed the happiness in her life to her husband and she did not want to spoil his life. She wrote that they "were happy until this disease came on." On March 28, 1941, sensing the beginning of another manic episode and a flight into madness, she drowned herself.

F. Scott Fitzgerald
In 1936, Scott Fitzgerald published in Esquire magazine a series of three essays dealing directly with depression, which he was experiencing. The first, The Crack-Up, was published in February; the second, Handle with Care, in March; and the third, Putting It Together, in April. Dr. Jamison described these essays as "dark, dreadful, and utterly desolate," with an enormous "sense of bleakness." They vividly express the feelings Scott Fitzgerald experienced during an intense depression. Because he wrote them during it, not afterward, they have great clarity and impact. He wrote "from the bone." He "hated the night and hated the day," and referred to himself as "a cracked plate." Anyone who has endured a severe depression can identify with those descriptions.
"Difficulties nerve the Spirit of Man," he said; they focus the mind on concerns of life rather than letting it wander to darker thoughts. Keats often sank into a "profound disquiet which he could not or would not explain," in the words of a friend, caused by the "motion of the inland sea he loved so well."

Creativity and Depression
Article by Meana Kasi discussing the link between creativity and depression from the perspective of "There is scientific evidence that the same people who are predisposed to creativity are also the ones who are most prone to suffer from depression. Oftentimes, this battle with depression may lead to suicide and/or drug/alcohol abuse as is evidenced by a long list of famous artists (painters, writers, musicians, etc) who have taken their own lives or battled addiction as a result of suffering from depression.

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Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Mucho gusto me llamo Bradley I'm hornier than Ron Jeremy

I got a feeling that behind those jeans is something wonderful just waiting to get out." –Jack Horner

Today I discovered I share a birthday with a famous star, Porn star that is. March 12 is not only MY birthday, but its also the birthday of the Hedgehog or better known as Ron Jeremy. I could not believe I have never discovered this until today, I knew about Ricky Shroder and Lawrence Welk, but never this icon who has done so much to revolutionize sexuality in America. I must say that I am honored. March 12, the day porn star champions are made!

Mucho gusto me llamo Bradley I'm hornier than Ron Jeremy
and if you wanna get popped in your knee
just wipe that look off your fat face
you hate me cause I got what you need
You hate me cause I got what you need,
A pretty little daughter that we call mixie, and,
If you wanna get beat physically
It will be over in a minute if ya

So she told me to come over and I took that trip
And then then she pulled out my mushroom tip
And when it came out, it went drip drip drip
I didnt know she had the g.i. joe, kung foo grip

And it went - uhh
And the girl caress me down- uhh
And thats that lovin sound- it went uhh
And the girl caress me down- uhh
And thats that lovin sound

When I kiss mixie she makes me feel horny,
Cause I’m the type of lover with the sensitivity,
When she kiss my neck and tickle me frenzy,
The right kind of lover on sunday morning

-Sublime Carress me Down

Amber Waves: Let me just check on something. [Takes off Dirk's pants.] That is a giant cock.

Ron's reply to Bradley
"I don’t think I'm much hornier than the average guy," says the man who fucks for a living. In his broad, Jewish-New-Yorker accent, Ron Jeremy continues with the matter-of-fact pragmatism of an accountant, "People often think you must be. But I don't know, you have to have a certain amount of concentration to do it on camera."

*he is a star wars fan too… here he is with Carrie Fisher and the actor who played Chewbacca!

Floyd Gondolli: I like simple pleasures, like butter in my ass, lollipops in my mouth. That's just me. That's just something that I enjoy.

They call him Hedgehog. Short, hairy and pleasantly plump, he's been in over 1,750 pornographic films, as well as mainstream movies, including Detroit Rock City and Orgazmo. He's appeared in 14 music videos from Moby's to Ice T's. Charted his own music for 27 weeks on Billboard. Directed over 300 films and has even done stand-up comedy. He's lectured at California State's Fullerton campus and at UCLA on sex and the law.

- Ron Jeremy stats
Full Name: Ron Jeremy
Occupation: Porn Star
Name: Ron Jeremy
Birthday: March 12, 1953
Birthplace: New York

Oooh yes... Do me Ronnie?!?!?!?
I confess not attracted to Ron Jeremy, but I LOVE watching him in adult film. And like Tony Soprano, there is something about Ronnie that makes him strangely appealing. Why?, because he makes me laugh, and every porn scene he appears in is fun. I currently own two pornos with Ron Jeremy, and I love watching his scenes. In one porn, he plays the slimy porn boss who is auditioning a new “star”. In the other, he plays himself Ron Jeremy, it’s a Debby Does Dallas movie (the 3rd) and he cameos as himself and even shoots a hairy ass scene. Its like train wreck porn, he grosses you out with his hairy ass and fat body, and makes you laugh at the same time. His expressions during his cum shots are always classic. Close up on his face, and he gets all scrunched up and intense! LOL. He delivers his lines with sleaziness and style of a pornstar champion. Im always impressed at his acting, he actually is good, and I suppose what is the best acting is how he scores so many chicks! Ron has been with everyone, from Nina Hartley to Kendra Jade.

I think I was the average looking guy that guys could relate to. If you get a real good-looking guy, it's hard to get so far because the audience does not relate.

Vibrating Ron Jeremy Penis.... Ewwwww!
I found on the internet that you can actually buy a vibrating penis molded after Ron Jeremy, though I don’t know if that thought excites or disgusts me. A vibrating replica of the body part that made Ron Jeremy famous.

Quotes from the Jedi Master
What is your favorite position?
Any one where the girl screams "yes!"When you have sex, is it a chore or...
Oh I still love it.
Q: Good to know, how about sex toys, anything you like or use?
Yes, my own mold, the Ron Jeremy mold, so I can double penetrate a girl and both are mine

Sex Tips from the Hedgehog
"To quote my old friend the comedian, the late, great Sam Kennison, 'lick the alphabet'. Sam would say, if he learned give really good head, he wouldn't have to give away everything he owns every five years. The trick is to give a girl really good head, and give her a good orgasm before she even sees what your penis looks like. Keep the mystery going."

Would Ron do a male/male love scene?
Men "I won't do men. Only because once you a guy's hairy behind, you don't feel like sticking anything in it. I wanna give him a shave. And I don't have to worry about it, because I've seen my rear end on a wide screen and no self-respecting homosexual would want to do me."

Jeremy interview links
Link 1
Link 2

What Ronnie considers Quality Stuff?
I like the old-fashioned stuff with a plot and a story line since I'm coming from the actor's point of view. Some people say, "Why?" Well, I like a setup, a buildup, a tease. I still come from the old-school attitude where you want to see a tease before you see the girl get naked. Let's see some dialogue and get into character. I don't want, here's a cup of coffee... eat me!

Like Dirk Diggler.. Ron does Karate!

Ron the Funny Man:
I think porn films need that, but was told to stop making jokes after the nookie started. I was criticized by one of the filmmakers, who told me that guys can't laugh and have a boner at the same time. I never thought about it, but I had to agree with him

I Rented a Ron Movie from Hollywood Video
I saw the documentary Porn Star: the legend of Ron Jeremy, which I actually found at Hollywood Video. I LOVED the movie, it was a great documentary, that totally captured Ron’s personality, while also featuring some of his classic lines and adult scenes.

Ron describes the movie
It's about my life, from childhood on. Shows me getting into the teaching profession, my family being all war veterans. People are shocked that I was a former schoolteacher. It's a little slice of life, it puts a friendly face on the world of porn; no drugs, no alcohol, no abuse, just a guy, college-educated, who wanted to make a porno film, and ended up being in the porn business. People will find it interesting hopefully

Ron Jeremy-the movie link

"Porn Star: The Legend of Ron Jeremy" is the new, critically acclaimed feature film that explores the life of the world’s most unlikely sex star, Ron Jeremy.
The Daily Herald said of the film: "look beyond the temptation of doing nasty, intimate acts with drop-dead-gorgeous women. You'll see a hidden portrait of a man who spends his life in desperate perpetual motion, afraid to stop, and always stuffing the voids in the heart with superficial affections from complete strangers called the public...

Here is a link to Ron’s official webiste, if you want to see some great photos!
Ron Jeremy Site

Welcome to the Jungle…. Baby!

Ron Jeremy Biography I found this on the web... enjoy!

A pudgy but lovable wacko who has become one of porn's most prolific male stars through sheer perseverance, Ron Jeremy is one of the best-known porn studs of all time. He's a mustachioed and portly guy whose fun-loving nature comes through in every leering glance, a man who is affectionately known as "The Hedgehog" due to the amount of hair on his back. Ron Jeremy is certainly not the best-looking guy to ever sex for the cameras, but his dogged persistence and reliable tool have kept him busy for over twenty years.

Ron graduated in the Cardoza (Brooklyn) High Class of 1971 and attained a master's degree from Queens College. He was working as a high school special education teacher in New York City by the mid-1970's. In 1978, Ron's girlfriend sent a photo of him in to "Playgirl" magazine for inclusion in its 'Boy Next Door' section. The publishers knew a good thing then they saw it, and Ron's photo was duly published. He ended up getting not only lots of letters from female admirers, but also from some hardcore producers from the area. Ron was quite the ham even then and enjoyed moonlighting in off-Broadway theater. The burgeoning porn industry was just starting to take off in New York, and Ron leapt at the offers he received. He made his hardcore debut in 1979's "Tigresses. . .And Other Man-Eaters," taking on Samantha Fox in his very first on-screen encounter. He ended up dropping his teaching gig and pursuing porno stardom full time. Ron soon became one of the busiest guys in porn.

Ron is the first to admit that he's not the best looking guy in the industry, but he feels that his average-Joe looks have actually helped him to sustain his popularity. "People can relate," he says. "When you see a gorgeous guy getting all the girls, the audience goes 'So what?' You see a schlub like me get lucky and it's like there's hope for everybody else."

Ron has also moved behind the camera and branched out, becoming one of porn's most well-known ambassadors to the mainstream media. He's appeared on tons of talk shows (including numerous stints on "Jerry Springer") and serves as a frequent consultant on 'legit' projects like "Boogie Nights," "9 1/2 Weeks" and the acclaimed documentary "Heidi Fleiss: Hollywood Madam." Always eager to branch into the mainstream, Ron has also had bit parts in such Hollywood features as "Killing Zoe" and "Detroit Rock City."

Ron spends any spare time he has performing at comedy clubs from coast to coast, spreading his special brand of off-color glee. He remains one of the busiest men in the industry, a true original who has always done things his way.

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Tuesday, June 29, 2004

Ooooh.... yeah...Spank me like a bad GRRRL! Bettie Page and Bondage 101

In my teens I idolized Marilyn Monroe, she was sexy, sultry, and oh so beautiful. Marilyn was my dream grrrl, until my early 20’s when upon my sexual liberation I first became expose to Bettie Page. Unconsciously, almost as if fate had intervened, by my early 20’s I started to cultivate the Bettie Page look. This was before I even was aware of who she was. I prefered to keep my hair dark, with short bangs, I preferred 50’s style clothing, and I was especially was into sporting anything leopard print… bras, panties, furniture, purses, shoes…Everything. Once I became aware of Bettie I felt a soul connection, as if my spiritual sister had paved the way for my sexual and personal identity.

Bettie the Bondage Babe
Bettie was also very naughty, her highly publicized “bondage” photos still leave a legacy of both fetish and intrigue. From what we saw in the photos, Bettie liked to be spanked with a hairbrush, spank other grrrls, be tied up, gagged, and emulate the persona of a Dominatrix Diva. Bettie made this look oh so exciting, and I couldn’t wait to emulate her in every way. To this day, one of my dreams has been to do a black and white photo shoot in homage to Bettie’s bondage shots. Im still waiting to find the “right” photographer to complete this goal. LOL

Dominatrix Divas!
I started getting into bondage and fetish in my early 20's. This culminated when I moved to the Bay Area, and would attend fetish shows and Sexstacy balls (Featuring bands such as Lords of Acid and Thrill Kill Kult). At these events, a bunch of us grrrls would dress to the nines in full on bondage gear and then go out and paint the town red. For my look, I would usually sport fishnet tights held up by an exposed garter belt, a short vinyl mini skirt, black bra, see through top, and accessorize with spiked cuffs, spiked collar, handcuffs, a whip, and a big leather cock ring worn on my arm as a bracelet. Being that I am about 6 feet tall, I would always play the Dom. My grrrlfriend, who was a petite brunette, would be my slave, dressing in a shear see-through dress, with black bra and panties exposed, a big dog collar with a leash…of which I of course had the reigns! We would parade around, and I would spank her and we would kiss, and fondle each other, and act all wild and and oh so crazy. We especially liked to "go wild" AFTER the fetish show, out on the town, where we could shock the locals. Granted it was San Francisco, but we still got some shocked and surprised looks from passerby’s. This was all for fun and show, but none of these theatrics really made it into the bedroom. I do have a bunch of great photos from these adventures that if I am able to scan one day, I will share.

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Sexually my bondage experience seem to keep me in the position of slave grrrl. I have been blindfolded and tied up numerous times during sex.(very fun especially with silk sheets, candlewax, and other naughty bedroom toys) I have also been handcuffed, or forcibly restrained. I love to be spanked, bitten, have my hair pulled and be roughed with. It seems however, that my being female, most men I have been with insist on being the Dom, and my being the slave. Most men like to spank, but don’t want to be on the receiving end. Believe me, I try to get them to bend over my knee, and use a hairbrush on their ass, but they just wont let me do that for long. They would wrather, it seems, do that to me. Like the freak I am, I of course LOVE IT! I have tied a man up and given him oral, or gotten on top, and they do seem to like it when they can just lay there and I do all the work. It seems when it comes to bondage, I am the slave…. Not the Dom. Though I like to play one on TV... LOL.

Thank you Bettie!
Thank you Bettie for teaching me how to be sexy, liberated, naughty, and a dark haired diva. We will probably never know, what really happened to Bondage Queen Bettie, but we will love and cherish her Goddess image for a lifetime…
Xoxoxoxo love you Bettie! Below is an short article on Bettie, and then some bondage sex tips...

Photos from this site

Excerpt from article on Bettie
Bettie link

Black Bangs, Bikinis and Bondage
Desiree Krauss

The legendary Bettie (her preferred spelling) Page has a huge cult following, and with good reason; she is simply the queen of pin-up girls. The voluptuous, dark haired beauty with her trademark bangs captured a unique mix of naughty and nice in the 1950's that is still revered today by many fans. She may not be as publicly known as say, Marilyn Monroe or other starlets of that era, but it’s that dark edge that makes us love her. It has been estimated that over 20,000 photographs of Bettie have been taken – more than Madonna, Greta Garbo and Marilyn Monroe combined.
She was born in Nashville, April 22, 1923, the second of six children. Her family suffered from economic instability during the Depression and her parents encountered many problems; her father was abusive and womanizing. When her parents divorced, Bettie, at the age of 10, and her sisters were placed in an orphanage while her mother worked and saved money.
In high school, Bettie was a straight A student, active in school activities, such as the drama club, and didn't date very much. She was even voted "Most Likely to Succeed." She also learned to sew and would later make many of her own costumes. She fell a bit short of being class valedictorian and lost a scholarship to Vanderbilt University. After high school, she enrolled in the Peabody College for Teachers in Nashville. Billy Neal, her boyfriend, became her husband during her first year at Peabody, but he was drafted and sent off to War. She graduated in 1944 with a B.A. and moved to San Francisco to be closer to him. She got her start in modeling in San Francisco, posing in fur coats for a local furrier.
When the War was over, Bettie and Billy grew apart; she did quite a bit of traveling during this time to Miami, Nashville and Port au Prince. In November 1947, she filed for divorce. (She would marry again two more times!) Bettie Page moved to New York, where she met Jerry Tibbs. Jerry was a cop who dabbled in photography. He helped her put together her pin-up portfolio and suggested that she wear bangs to mask her high forehead, which would become her signature look.
Her modeling career took off; she began posing within camera clubs, where as many as sixty photographers would be snapping away. Her shots showed up in a variety of cheesecake magazines. She had no qualms about posing nude. Bettie preferred outdoor shoots; many of her infamous beach shots are by Bunny Yeager.
Bettie Page began working with brother and sister team Irving and Paula Klaw in 1951, posing for what were very controversial bondage photos in the conservative, "I Like Ike" days of America. Her uber-high heels, whips and other accoutrements of domination were ordered up by the customers who purchased the photos. Ms. Page laughed at some of the odd requests, yet was able to deliver these poses with a twinkle in her eye.
The success of these photos led to 8mm shorts such as Varietease and Teaserama. She made at least 50 of these infamous short stag films.
She was chosen as the centerfold in Playboy's January issue in 1955. The picture chosen was bought by the then-fledgling magazine from Bunny Yeager. Bettie was just shy of 32 years old at that time; ironic considering most models were considered “over-the-hill” at 25.
A huge controversy stirred over the Irving Klaw fetish films, and the U.S. government investigated Klaw as a pornographer. He was arrested for distribution of obscene material and it is estimated that 80% of his photos were burned.
Also around this time, it has been said that a pornographer placed Bettie’s head on another woman’s body. The only set of “nasty” photos may have been taken at a party where Bettie was drunk, but this was pushing it too far. Bettie spent much of her savings buying up these photographs.
Feeling burned out, she ended her modeling career at its peak in 1957. She left New York for Florida, and became a devout Christian in the late fifties. Today she lives privately with her family in California, never to be photographed again, but she is clearly etched in our memories as the bikini-clad, black banged girl.

What would be a Vadergrrrl post with out some sex tips. For those curious about bondage here are some tips. Enjoy!

Bondage site

Bondage for beginners
Many people think about bondage but have no idea where to start. Here's TheSite's beginner guide to get you started safely.
A simple definition of bondage is that it restricts someone's movement. Many people have tried a bit of "tie and tease", and found it to be an exciting way to spice up their love life.
The most important aspect of bondage games is trust, because one of the partners started safely.
A simple definition of bondage is that it restricts someone's movement. Many people have tried a bit of "tie and tease", and found it to be an exciting way to spice up their love life.
The most important aspect of bondage games is trust, because one of the partners is restricted and therefore vulnerable. You must be able to trust one another completely; otherwise these kinds of games should never be played. The active partner (or 'top') should never use the session purely to fulfil their own fantasies in a selfish way, they should also think about the pleasure of the restrained partner ('passive partner' or 'bottom').

What's the attraction?

People are attracted to this type of play for a number of different reasons. Being tied up allows some people to relax and enjoy being given pleasure without having to worry about giving pleasure back to their partner at the same time. Others prefer to play-struggle against their restraints, and say it builds up an exciting adrenaline rush. Being blindfolded is supposed to heighten other sensations in the body. The person performing the bondage gets increased feelings of personal power, but of course this must never be abused.

First-time fun ideas

Some things that first-timers can try out include:
· Taking turns to tie each other up with silk scarves and tease one another.
· Tie the passive partner up with something that can easily be broken out of, such as paper streamers, or a really thin chain. Then they only have to stay in that position if they want to be there.
· Blindfolding during sex, massage, or kissing.
· Furry lovecuffs - handcuffs that are padded with fake fur on the inside to prevent chafing, and can't close too far (which cuts off the circulation).
Before you go rushing off to the bedroom (or dungeon!), read our safety tips and reminders.

Safety tips

There are several safety issues to consider when playing bondage games, concerning consent, abuse, and physical injuries. If you don't feel safe with something then don't do it, there are hundreds of other things you can do instead.
· This is NOT something to try with someone you've just met. You really don't know whether they are trustworthy or not until you know them better, however charming they may seem at first.
· Never let a partner coerce or bully you into any sexual practice that you don't want to do. It's perfectly OK to say no, a decent lover will understand.
· Talk about it beforehand and discuss what you plan to do. Say what you will or will not allow. These rules and limits are sacred and must not be broken during the game.
· Have a safe word agreed before you begin. This is something that the passive partner can say if they want the other person to stop, a common safe word is 'enough'. The active partner must then stop what they are doing immediately, and release the passive partner within seconds.
· Never tie something around someone's neck unless it is a collar that's specially made for the purpose. There is a high risk of tissue damage, choking, or fatal strangulation. Similarly, gags are potentially dangerous.
· If someone is tied up, they must never be left alone. The active partner must make sure they are comfortable, breathing properly, and that nothing is cutting off their circulation.
· Do not try bondage in a remote place, just in case there is an accident that leaves the active partner injured and the passive partner tied up with no way of getting help.
· If you've never tried bondage before, don't go straight into anything that uses complicated equipment. This is for experts only and has extra safety issues that you may not understand.
· The rules of safer sex still apply. Use condoms for penetrative sex. Drink and drugs can cause you to seriously underestimate safety risks. Avoid intoxication

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Monday, June 28, 2004

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